Jealous Family Members

Pandomodium is here to tell you about my evil , and hateful family members i lived around for many years. 

I had a pretty hard life as a child growing up in California. I had to work very hard from the time i was 12 years old.  My other family members always had things given to them when they were young children.

Me, and my brother did not have it so good at all. My mother work hard everyday to make sure we had food on the table to eat. I knew as a small child i would have to work very hard to have anything in life.

The odds were not good for us as children growing up in California . We over heard friends that were visiting over at our grandmother's home make very nasty rude remarks about how we would turn out in life. I heard things like they will be dead or in prison or on drugs .

These church folks had me, and my brother dead , and jailed before we were even 10 years old. Now that was a very sad time for me as a child to hear the church folks tell my grandmother them bad things that were suspose to happen to me, and my brother.

So from that day on i was out to prove all of them wrong. I did not know how things would workout for us over the next few years to come. But i would not lay down, and let them kill me off this earth before i even had a fighting chance.

I also remember a time when i ask my favorite cousin about a family party at her house one summer. I wanted to know why did they not invite my mother over there to this event. My Favorite close girl cousin told me something i have never ever forgot .

She told me her mother told her that my family was too poor to come to my mother's older brothers family summer parties.

Then she went on to tell me that her mother even said we were too poor to play with . Now that is an adult for you in the family. That really hurt me as a child hearing that from my cousin's mouth. I have never ever forgot them evil hateful words coming from her mouth.

Now many years later the same person who said all them things about me , and my mother are the one's in the dog house.  As a matter of fact they live in my grandma's house today.

This was a person that thought she was the catch of the day everyday. Now she is living where ever she can these days. I never thought in a million years i would ever see someone who put my family down so bad, and said bad things like this person did when i was a child go down in the dumps , and be broke as hell , and living on little money with no real home to go too. Wow God does work on the wicked, evil folks.

So Now that years have gone pass this person is close to 70 years old. Not looking as good anymore in the face or body. She has fallen into deep crap i must say.

She always talked about God to others around her. But she was surely the devil in a mask. God has taken her down off her high horse, and brought her to the level i lived as a child.

Even my cousin's who thought they were too good to be around us are not doing well at this time in there life. I have help all of them out many times over again.

I wanted to show them no matter how bad things were for me, and my brother . We still have God in our hearts, and let this be a lesson to other family members who think they have it all one day it can all be gone in a flash.

Until this day i still send them out money, and gifts when i have the chance. But one thing is for sure with these family members. They have not change one thing in there life. There still evil. and hateful in many ways.

Also i do not hear from them at all unless they need money or a shoulder to cry on.  Like a fool God will not let me do bad towards them . I only have pitty for these family members. So now i live far, and try to stay clear of there evil dirty ways.

I do wish them all luck in all they do in life. But i can't be in that kind of family crap anymore.

2010 is a new year for me to take care of those who truly love, and care about Pandomodium . like my dear dad would say life goes on.

I think God for bringing me out of the dark , and into the light. Never think you can't be touch, and taken down to a point in your life where the shoes are now on your feet. Being poor is not a child's wish at all remember that God love us all the same way . Rich or Poor !

Pandomodium 2010 Happy New Year To All !